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creep [Thursday July 12th, 2007 at 9:22pm] [ mood | drained ] [ music | last night - diddy feat keyshia ] i loved you all along. you're so fucking special, i want you to notice. 3 >> reply >> edit

run away this time without you [Thursday June 28th, 2007 at 9:33am] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | sudah - nidji ] Yes, it hurt. It's hard letting go of something that you didn't know you were hoping for. i could never be sure i could ever let go. your love is much too strong. there are some things that I guess i'll never know, when you love someone you gotta learn to let them go. but i miss you sometimes. The more i know, the less i understand. All the things i thought i knew, i'm learning again. What do you do when you wake up everything will be better, except its not. and there's no worse feeling than when you wake up and feel okay for a minute. and then that sick feeling washes over you and you remember it's not okay. the time will come along someday when i have to let you go and right now i think it'll only happen when i leave for aust. you'll still be there in everything that i do, and wherever i go i'll remember you.  but i know that there's a part of me that will be in love with you for the rest of my life.  6 >> reply >> edit

the best i ever had [Thursday May 17th, 2007 at 11:05pm] [ music | all my life - kc and jojo ] so you sailed away into the grey sky morning... but its not so bad, you're the best i ever had but my heart wont believe that you left us you brought out the best in me   i still remember you, i love you dearest uncle gurnam! you're just like an angel, so very special 6 >> reply >> edit

what goes around comes all the way back around love [Wednesday April 11th, 2007 at 1:44pm] [ music | far away - nickleback ] I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while Even though going on with you gone still upsets me There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok, just like that. What hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say and watching you walk away not knowing what could have been. It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go but I'm tryin' to. It's hard to force that smile when I see my friends. But I know if I could do it over, I would give away all the words that I saved in my heart which was left unspoken for you. All these gets to me, badly.

the look in your eyes reflects the sunset i see. [Wednesday April 4th, 2007 at 4:10pm] [ music | collide - howie day ] when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair remember, it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home.  I fell to the floor tonight, I thought of you and how much I really do miss you. and in a blink the moment was gone... I lost my way along with the pain. 4 >> reply >> edit

it takes two to tango, but one to let go. [Friday March 23rd, 2007 at 7:35pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | lips of an angel - hinder ] "Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy." i'm learning to live with it, but i miss you sometimes. the more i know, the less i understand. all the things i thought i knew, i'm learning again. its cold and bitter and it's chilled me to the bone. i'm twisted cause one side of me is tellin' me that i need to move on but on the other side i wanna break down and cry and i cant take another day of this. i suppose that the light at the end of the tunnel, though not very bright, is at least still there. it's like an angel without it's wings. as i sit here contemplating, everything to show i appreciate you. when you lose a part of yourself to somebody you know, it takes a lot to let go. and after all these time, i guess i never really moved on. show me a garden that's bursting into life. so yea, it feels like crap. 7 >> reply >> edit

i've got the blues [Tuesday March 13th, 2007 at 11:39am] [ mood | sick ] [ music | icebox - omarion ] being sick sucks. losing your voice sucks even more. whats worst, having sore tonsils. and to top it all i've got my mid term managerial accounts exam tmr. it dont look too good for sure cos nothing makes sense to me now. all i wanna do is just sleep. but seems like i gotta a whole pile of shit waiting for me to clear. i need a breakkkkkkkkkkkkk. 7 >> reply >> edit

to my dearest uncle [Friday March 9th, 2007 at 11:55am] [ mood | numb ] [ music | closer to me - five ] my dearest uncle, sexy sam! we're all praying for you. i miss you way too much.  I say a prayer that you'll come back to us soon. Life ain't anything alone can't you see you're the angel in our eyes. Our days and nights are cold without you here. Every day reminisce with the past, there are days that we can't forget. However far you are from us, we are close to you. You never let me down, you're true to the end You’re in the darkest hour, when all was lost. You faced the wrong and showed us a thing or two. Stood up for me, I hope you know how much you’ve changed all our lives. I still remember the things that you said I keep your words alive I could never forget Cause in the final hour you made me proud. Everyday you're closer to me. tere bin, kaise jiya. "without you around, how do we live?" I will never find another one uncle sweeter than you, more precious than you. You are close to me like my mother, close to me like my father, close to me like my brother. No one else comes close to you. 3 >> reply >> edit

you win with just a glance [Sunday March 4th, 2007 at 12:25pm] [ mood | drunk ] [ music | dhoom again - dhoom two ] friday night, meiyu's birthday bash at st james was awesome baby! movida and boiler was fantabulous. the dj's spinning was in top form, we tried to bribe them for "one more song" haha, i think they got pissed cos they wanted to close. but the mixing at both rooms was great. crazy drunk til the wee hours of sat morning. i guess it was one of the better clubbing nights but some of the people were really creepy, urgh. meiyu's bf, jason was a great host. booze, music it was sheer intoxication. the entire weekend was spent catching up on sleep. my legs still ache and my eyes keep tearing, i just miss you too much i guess. how do you give me so much pleasure and cause me so much pain? ( steal the dance cos you're the thief of hearts. ) 8 >> reply >> edit

you're so very special. [Tuesday February 27th, 2007 at 10:05pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | how to deal - frankie j ] I dont know if I made the right decision, feelings can never be forced. It just comes to you naturally either you fall for the person or not. I dont want to deceive you nor deceive me. I think we both know its better if we just let it go. I do not want to go into denial though I'm already at that stage now, but if you've fallen for someone already what can you do. you and I both know that our paths are separating. I tried to make it understand, I tried to reason with it now there's only a coldness which won't go away. the heart has reasons that reason does not know. how do you cope with, the one that you love is with somebody else and there's nothing else that you can do about it i gotta take it though its heartbreaking nobody said it'd hurt so bad. over and over i fall. you are hurting and on the other side i'm hurting too. maybe our two paths are different. its always better to let go than to hold on and hurt yourself, but what if you cant even let go? 8 >> reply >> edit

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